It's all about the windows!

People think I'm being funny and just ranting over nothing but my dad has now decided to get rid of our wooden frame, stain glass windows and go for plain plastic, double glazed ones. I love my windows, they've been a part of my life for 20 years now and they make the house, my house! and my room, my room! without them it just won't be the same! And the other problem is my window shape just won't be the same! Anyway, the other problem is because of the way my room is there's no way you can really get to the window (Picture a box, if you will-slightly elongated at the ends and a window is at one end. Now the window has two large windows at the bottom and two smaller windows at the top with a cross like shape in-between them. then in front of the window there is the end of a high bed, with a large wooden desk under it. Then on the other side is a bookcase, full of books bottom and top.) So Today I had to make some room for the guy to come and measure up the windows and the only way he could do that was for me to move my bookcase, so I first made my bed and moved everything off my floor and then I emptied my bookcase and then moved it into my brothers' room. then my dad tells me that my window sill must be emptied too! and what have I just done with all my books/dvds? stacked them in the only space I can reach the far end of my window sill from. So I had to clear the other corner and then I slightly moved everything forward. So now hopefully a tape measure can go in the gap. So that's done! but when they come to fit the windows my room will have to be emptied and stripped. So I know my room needs to be tidy and stuff for all my uni things to go in there, so I'll use that to do this, but it now seems I'm going to be at uni till I must move out Sunday 28th June, because I don't want to be round when they do the windows....it'll be just too heartbreaking for me and I won't be able to sleep in my room before and after too. My brothers' will have to sleep in the tent outside and my parents in the living room. So I'm having to stay, which really doesn't bother me because at least the choice has now been made for me! The other thing is that hopefully the windows will be fitted on Thursday/Friday which is my last days at uni anyway, in time for me to move back and also for my birthday party!!!!! which is on Saturday 4th July 2009. My birthday's on the Thursday 2nd July!!!!!!!!!! So hopefully everything will go okay there! I know it has to be done but it hurts and I'm trying to make people understand but its hard.......mum and dad understand it-they like our windows too-but of course there are some good sides to the new windows 1. no more painting the frames, easily clean and no rotting/leaking, keeps warm air in, looks nicer/more modern and of course the house can be sold for slightly more if the time ever comes.
So I'm glad to be back at uni now -no more cleaning and fighting! I can just look after me, which is so what I need right now! anyway plans for tomorrow have been set -watching the Pirates of the Caribbean trilogy!!!! Should be fun and I can spend the next four weeks loving my crazy student life of my first year.

Freedom!

Hey, my exam is now over! It went okay really, the questions were suitable to what I'd been studying and well I wrote like three pages on each question and I stuck to the points and stuff, so hopefully I'll have got enough marks to pass now. The exam was also my last thing of my first year. Seems to have gone by so quickly... must be all the parties and late nights! Anyway, it seems kinda sad that everyone is packing up to go home and we won't be living together any more. :( It's like another chapter has been turned in the book of life and though it can be read again it can never really be re-lived. But I don't think I'd really change any of it. I've grown so much just being here and discovering stuff about myself, its funny to think that there was a time-only like 2 years ago! when I decided uni really wasn't for me and I'd never go.....I wonder what would happen if that had been my thinking in the spring of 2008? and where I would be now because I wouldn't be sitting in my room, in my hall, on campus, with my best friend sitting in my bean bag chair beside me and the knowledge that being writer was my purpose in life and what I was born to do. Because it really is, I've decided that now, I doubt I could try to be anything else and why should I not just give into what I want to do? Even if nobody publishes my stories or reads them as novels -not just on a computer screen, I'm only truly happy when I'm writing now.
Many people said I should become a teacher because I just look and seem to be one, but though I knew that it's an option, to me teaching has never seem to be me-it's not who I want to be! Same with my first goals to be come a vet or do some other job with animals- that's not me any more and well though I'd love to be the lead singer in the world's greatest heavy metal band ever and be madly in love with the base guitarist and for him to be madly in love with me, I know that's only a fantasy and very unlikely to ever happen. So I must now follow my heart and take up my gift of writing and use it to make myself happy.
Well, it least I now have the whole summer ahead of me to do such a thing. I might even be tempted to get something published this year!

May's First Post

I've been busy finishing off my last essays these last two weeks and luckily I manged to get everything in last Friday! So now that's all done I just need to revise for Eng lit 2 exam and really I'm not looking forward to that. Its not the exam itself because I hardly get scared or stressed about exams, my motto with them has always been just as long as you've revised and you've tried your best on the day, that is all you can do and you should be proud of yourself. For this exam its more of the subject; I've just got a problem with theory, its complicated and hard to understand it, therefore I hate it and this has been the circle for me now. I've no choice now, so I'm going to revise and just try my best. So all the teaching on my course finished on Friday so at least Ive been able to see the whole year through. I'm pretty sure I've passed the year too, as I've not failed any essays and my marks have been around the 60 mark and I've been told repeatedly that they lower the marks slightly to make you do better next year. They also wipe all your marks out at the start of next year too and though I know the marks this year don't count, I'll still feel like they are a part of me but I'll use them to make my other essays better. Next year counts a hell of a lot and I know that I must try harder and just spend more time doing my essays.
Right now, beside my revising, doing some personal reading and writing, I've no other plans for the rest of the day. The weather's not so great outside and I plan to go to the market tomorrow anyway. I'm staying the weekend at uni to revise and luckily my best friend is staying with me! So undoubted we'll be busy planning my novel and wondering which movies to watch.