First weekend home after 2 weeks at uni.

Okay, so I've been living in the house or the Aubergine as it was nicknamed and has still stuck, in the middle of ormskirk town, 20 minutes walk from Edge Hill Uni, for under two weeks now. I guess I've been meaning to write, but I've not had the wanting or the inspiration. I've taken a huge break from really writing after I finished R2 as well, this has not helped, but was something I so needed to do. So now I'm finished in uni for the weekend and I know I'm going to have to do some creative writing work- 6 poems and a 15 minute script are needed for me to pass this first term. I also face a ton of reading, which I knew, but since more books have been added to the lists and I've still not finished MD5 though I promised myself I would, I'm kinda dreading it. But still that's life as a student!
Generally things with the house have been good, though one of the guys is stuck to his girlfriend and there really isn't a time when I don't see him with out her. Not something I'd normally be bothered about and I'm only just a bit jealous of their love, but they are noisy just talking to each other and they are prone to starting an argument over the smallest, simplest of things and then saying it was nothing! She's always around now and she just bugs me with her childish ways-she's like 22/22. Plus she really wants a baby and that annoys me because she's just so child like in her ways- like a 6 year old really! always demanding things and doing nothing of any help, just creating more mess-so how does she expect to rise a child herself? I guess she's just looking at the cute, loving and bonding side of things, not the time, money, energy, creativity, passion and strength it takes to rise a new life in this harsh world. I bet though she'll have a baby and some where in the world there's a great couple who would make the perfect parents and they'll never have a baby. God is strange like that, maybe he's testing us all in his own way....
Moving on to the next house problem! The 2ND girl I'm meant to be living with is currently not here and living with someone else in ormskirk. She's hardly talking to us about anything and its frustrating us all because we really don't know what she's up too. To make matters worse, we can't do anything about it because its all down to her and the landlord! At the minute we strongly believe that she plans to tell us that she doesn't want to move in with us and then we might end up with someone else- who's worse, living with us.....or we might end up with a really great and cute guy! I can dream right????? Still we're waiting with held breath for her word and it feels like we are puppets in a box waiting to jumped into her hands whenever she comes close. I'm rebelling! I'm not being her toy and I'm so not covering up for her when the landlord shows up in a few minutes. I'm gonna tell him that she's not been living with us and she's cut all the commutations off with all of us. Which is the truth.
Anything else to add? Not really, beside from a good weekend at home. I've been busy shopping! and I've had my hair cut too now. I've had fun with my family and I'm not really looking foreward to going back to the house tonight now!

Enrolment day!

So I enrolled at uni today for my second year! Happy, glad it was sorted out fast too, just the queuing was bad. Just lots of people in the wrong lines and the lines going on forever. Would be easier if just one person could enrol you, but it takes at lest 4 if not more! Or why can't we enrol online? just confirm everything and click go and then just pick up cards and stuff when we get there? People just waste their lives in queues, just wanting to get to places and things, live would be better if there were no queues!
I had to go and see the house too and its much better then last time now. My room is my own at last! and it may be the 3rd biggest in the house but I don't care, just the views outside my window and my white floorboards....its twice the size of my room at home. I just have to get all my stuff into it now! That's on Saturday, my moving in day. Till then I've to clean my room, pack my stuff and pack the car. Then there's a huge list of things to do at uni and the house. But I'll just take these things as they come.
I can't wait now to start my uni live once more, looking forward to it now. Helps that I finished my novel now and most of my Eng lit reading. Feeling tried, so I'm off to bed early.

The loss of another password yet again!

Why is it we just forget the passwords we put on things? They are there to protect our stuff in this crazy world of online hacking, but when you come to log in to something after not using it for a while, don't you get that dreadful feeling of 'what if I've forgotten my password and I'm locked out forever'? Luckily, half the time you remember the password, or you have it wrote down somewhere; on your phone, notebook or on a scrap of paper stuck under the table with a piece of chew gum. But in that rare case when your password is lost to that land of never ending lost things, you can just hit the 'send me my password now!' button or the 'reset our password' and once its done and you have your new password, you can just sit back, breath out that deep breath you've been holding that's been making you turned blue and began to do whatever it was on said website that you thought you'd have lost your account on. Thanks for that! Anyway moving on. It's only a week and two days now till I got back to uni! Kinda scared but excited too. Soon my crazy blog can be about uni again and not my boring summer. Things are not going so good with the house though. I came back from my wet, windy and wild week camping in a field in Anglesey, to discover that the house was not really how it should have been. Once again its left me wondering what cruel twist of fate decided to dish out this much stress over a house to me and poor house-mates. Would rolling the dice of Fate again make it better? I don't know, but one thing is for sure; its not over yet! It's going to take a while for peace to come to that house, but I'm as positive as ever! I won't let the house bet me...even if it does turn out to be some mad killer house and everyone who lives there ends up dying. Hopefully things will look up soon. I've finished Sense and Sensibility now and I'm sorry to say it was a bad book and needs to be burnt. I've also read the three Jacobean witchcraft plays and they weren't so bad. Should read my Shakespeare now, but I've had enough of reading stuff I must read, so I'm taking a break and doing some of my own novel writing. Though that has its down side at the minute! I must make all these stories connect some how....gonna take a huge plan and a lot of Iron Maiden to get me through this!

Has become addicted to knitting!

When people think about the word knitting, they imagine a bunch of old grannies sitting in a room together with tea and cakes, busy knitting scarfs and jumpers. These, they then send off to relatives as Christmas presents, which are then shoved at the back of a cupboard and forgotten till the next cleaning day. When discovered the knitted item is tossed to a Charity shop, perhaps never or only wore once, because it is too big/small/bright/childish or just out of fashion. For a long time now I've known that knitting is a dying skill. This is mostly because people don't want to learn it or think its just too hard for them to understand. Also because in the world of today when we can just pop down to a shop or order straight from the Internet, all the clothes one could ever want are easy to buy, (and often so cheap it makes you wonder how shops can really afford to sell items for less then the cost of the material it was made from!) so there's no need to make your own clothes like there has been in the past.

I remember going to primary school in jumpers and a pinny that my mum had knitted and feeling so different to the other children who were wearing new factory made things. She'd knit other jumpers for me as well and I guess because I was young, I had no taste for her home-made clothes and this lead her to stop knitting for awhile

My mum has recently picked up knitting again and over the past few years she has made a lot of things for me, herself and my youngest brother and she's even subscribed to a knitting magazine! Mostly these are things like jackets for the summer and winter, which look really nice and get lots of compliments from people. Baby clothes for my cousin's children or her friends and she's currently keeping some for mine and my brothers' children in the near future. Fingerless gloves, cuffs and socks have been her hardest to make creations and she has had a lot of fun knitting toys from Alan Dart's patterns; two cats, a witch, Jack O'lantern, a pirate, a frog prince and Yuletide Gnomes.

She taught me to knit awhile ago and I can purl (Basically knitting backwards) too, but because it took me a long time to do these skills correctly she has never taught me how to cast on and cast off (putting the wool on the needles and taking it off). So last week we choice the pattern to make the Christmas presents for my uni friends (because the Yuletide Gnomes we knitted last year went down a treat.) and because it was so simple to do she taught me how to cast on and off. Now I'm busy making lots of knitting and practising with different wools with my new learnt skills! At the minute I'm also learning to decrease (were you put to stitches together and make the knitting smaller) which can some times be tricky, but I'm getting the hand of it now.

So Knitting has become a passion for me now and it really does run in my family! I've many memories of my Nana knitting blankets and hats whilst I was curled in front of her gas fire watching TV on cold winter nights. My dad's mum also use to knit and so did my mum's great aunt (who taught my mum because she knits left handed) I feel happy to carry on what I see as a tradition for my family and hopefully my friends will just love their presents this year!

This is Willamina witch and Jack O' lantern, The Yuletide Gnomes!
sitting on my bookcase at uni and
both were made by my mum.

Ally and her Gnome

long time no bloggin'!

And so it seems, but there's really been nothing to add! I've not been doing a lot really other then writing R2 and reading MD and Eve. It feels I've been mostly wasting my days with sleep and bad TV. But there's little else to do at the minute. Most of my friends are on holiday or just too far away from me to go and see them or meet up at some point in-between. Though I've been promised by my two best friends we shall be meeting up soon, it has yet to be set. So I must wait a little longer and find better things to do with my summer days. Since I last wrote, I've earned a little money babysitting my neighbours kids and hopefully proved to her that I'm okay to do that, if she needs me to. My house has recovered well from my 21st party through there's still two boxes of pirate stuff hanging around that really don't have any where else to go. I've had a few ideas for stories and some ides for R2. This idea though happened last night when a guy said it walking down my street in the early hours of the morning; "I want to rent a dishwasher.....how much is that going to be?" So I thought I'm sure its possible to rent a dishwasher, though buying one would be easier. But I thought what would happen if when this dishwasher showed up it was a human?????? and out there some where is a company that pay people to rent out people who only wash up the pots? Sounds good. It'll be going with these two comments that happened on the same day whilst I was in Liverpool; "I didn't know you could read in Waterstones!" (As said by a woman in a book shop.) And "There wasn't a piano in the one you sent me." as said by a man walking down the road with his friend, and this one as well; "The umbrella is the devil's work," as said by an old woman in Ormskirk. So I'm thinking of putting them in a funny short story book.....so comments would be nice here!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mostly it now, going out soon to rent DVDs of the night.....should be good, since we've choice Marley & me, Knowing, Watchmen and Yes Man.

I'm off to see Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince in less then half an hour now! I'm excited and so looking forward to it! Though it would have been nicer if I wasn't the one paying for the tickets for my family! Anyway I just hope it's good and I'm not really that bothered about how close to the book it turns out to be really. I've not read the book in ages! Got to read books for Eng lit next year now and that really is taking up all my time! Some more good news is that I've started writing again now! Not sure how but I just moved a few things around in the book I'm writing and then I thought well I can started chapter 15 now and that's what happened. I've nearly finished 16 now, though that's a bit tricky because it's broken up into three different places! Manchester, Ireland and Liverpool. :) Going now. might have to come back later and do a review of Harry Potter 6!

Is missing uni life!

Not for the first time am I missing uni. I guess mostly the freedom and not having a parent/brother pop up every few minutes and ask you to do something or just distract you. But I already knew this summer would drag. A school child can't wait for summer and then it goes so fast, but me, who's life is now changed by uni life, didn't want the summer and knows that it is going to be a long boring one.

I can't write! I'm struggling to do it and mostly this is because of lack of 'alone space', inspiration and the constant nagging of friends-who are disparate to get their hands on the next set of chapters- but for reasons mostly relating to this, won't be getting them till I say so.- So I'm frustrated at myself, I can't get my stress relief and then I just get lazy and waste my day on stupid things like facebook farmtown, watching silly TV shows and listening to bad music.

I guess also there is nothing to look forward to this summer.....we're not going on Holiday and normally this is the one break I really love! No matter where we go-mostly some place in England in the car or in Wales camping, or what the weather is like, I just love getting out and having breaks from everything! TV, Internet, the house and sometimes my family and just the idea of exploring new places and seeing new things, its just something I like to do and does make my summer. But this year and it is mostly because of the money problems in the world, we won't be going anywhere and this is also part of my depression.

My mum's stress rubs off on me far to much. kinda like a nasty cold, once she's got it, I'm bound to get it and so this has happened tonight. It's the normally thing now......the lack of stuff done around the house which I'm sure also comes down to a number of things: I'm a girl, I'm the oldest, I now go to uni not school and I don't have a job and really I'm lazy and spend much of my time in bed or doing something that she things I don't need to be doing. So my mum moans about my lack of 'doing' around the house, which is fair enough and I'd understand if I didn't do anything, but that is not the case, I do stuff! okay, not every day like and maybe only when I'm in the right mood or have been forced but nobody is perfect and I feel like she's just out to get me because of the way things are.

So she told me to get a job and of course people know how hard that is during this time, but still I looked and there is a lot of jobs out there, but my problem is I lack the qualifications that most of these jobs want! I can't drive, do computers, plumbing, phone sales or door to door sales, teaching, child care, nursing, cooking, cleaning or caring. My areas are with animals-pet shops and animal homes and with books and creative writing. There's hardly any of these jobs going in my area. So what then? Behind the till at a supermarket or a bar? Knowing what my friends who work at these places say I'd rather not. I guess I'm really am being Naive about this job thing. I've never had one before. I've done work experiences and helped out, but a paid job I've never done. I've led a sheltered life and its hard to break away from that and of course what I really want to do; to be an author and poet, just doesn't happen over night and that's why I'm doing what I'm doing at uni! To live my dream! I've not got the energy at the minute through, all been spent on fighting and job searching.

I feel like doing what my dog is doing right now! Sleeping at my feet, safe in her dream world of chasing rabbits, postmen on cycle bikes and eating large juicy bones. Then waking up and being wanted and loved. A dog's life would be easier then this one right now!